You came to me like a dream... the kind that always leaves

Today was a day for realization.
I had the worst night for years... I went to bed around 11:30-ish and I just sat there, trying so hard to fall asleep forever... I looked at the clock expecting it to be 1 or something like that and it was already 3. I was like ._. wtf.... I ended up sleeping for like half an hour after that... weird ass dream...
I lived in some other house... and Vale really was my neighbor xD and somehow we just realized that our bedroom windows were like a foot away from each other so she climbed out the window and I opened mine and we were talking for a little while...
and the cops showed up and were like "you two! out so late! we're going to have to ask you a few questions..." so... they took her away and I put on shoes and went outside. The cops were driving an ice cream truck... and they gave me a super cute warm coat to wear... because it was super cold outside...
weird ass dream @.@ lolz... but I guess that's what I was thinking about before I fell asleep hm? :p
and that was all the sleep I got... >.> sucked ass haha oh well :p
so I jumped into the shower and thought... God I don't think I've ever had such a nice shower before...
I read My Antonia in BCIS... ummm and exchanged numbers with Levi and Thomas in Chem... i dunno lolz all random :p
pretty boring day at school....
I signed up for the THEA after school... and didn't have the right change for the PLAN >.<
and then I got my S&E music after school ^^ I haven't ever talked to Mr. Garza directly before ._. hahaha he's just like "um... I've never heard you play before @.@ what level do you want? Is this about right?" haha he's better than Epps by a mile :D for now at least~ hahaha
so I practiced after school... like I said, one of the songs is PERFECT :D
and then I did my chemistry homework :] and now Levi wants to copy >.> lolz
and THEN i got on the comp.. as last resort ^^ I'm so proud~~ :p
and I was reading teen vogue xD [we get it free in the mail...] so ja hahaha
and now I feel like doing something! I dunno what! just something!
hahaha maybe I'll go play piano after this ^^ or practice my S&E... though my mouth still hurts >.> or maybe I'll play my S&E on the PIANO!
lolz I'm suck a dork xD
maybe I'll just try to go to sleep...
since I didn't do such a good job of it last night @.@

tear stained cheeks, blood stained hands

Last night was so sweet
so perfect, so serene.
It ended soon after 4am... because I was really tired.

Today I woke up a little before 1pm...
dreaming the sweetest things.

my day was slow and lethargic.
I read here, played piano there.

I went to Target with my mom to kill time...
and I got a super cute coat ^^ I'm so happy I went with her~

and then I got on the computer and was talking to Chris...
and he got a new girlfriend o.o all out of the blue hahaha
so I got on his myspace to check her out... and she's super hot ^^
and Chris says that she's smart too! Valedictorian at PSJA :D
I'm so happy for him!
[heh... and I played around with my myspace while I was there... new photo thanks to me! lolz]

and Jorge got on magically... lolz...
he was on invisible forever >.>
and then...
i dunno :/
I think he's in a bad mood but I dunno :[
he seems annoyed...
but I don't know if it's because of me or what...
:{ I want it to be last night again...

In half an hour I have to go eat dinner with the mexicans.
God save me.
:p

and then I'll prolly atch desperat housewives with my mom...
if we don't get home super late

gah I want to go to sleep already *pouts*
every second I'm online seems like torture...
I dunno I'll go play piano some more >.<
it makes me feel good... sinking my fingers into the keys...
rough and gentle Ґ:

backwards

I'm listening to the sound of guitar through my phone, which is inconveniently squished in between my shoulder and my ear. It's Jorge playing. Pretty. I love listening to him play guitar. I love being on the phone with him; it doesn't come by so often.
Today was an OK day... could've gone by so much better... I had plans for it to be.
but really I just kinda ran chores with my mom all day... and talked to lilly ^^ I love you lills!!! <333 hahaha
for dinner we ate at PF Chang's and it was super yummy ^^
though.. the wait was 2 hours long :/
we went to the new Banes and Noble to kill time [yay] hahaha
I might be getting a new phone soon... for Christmas i guess :p since... i dunno my mom is crazy like that hahaha
I played on an 1877 Steinway today... I didn't really like it though... the sound was tangy, especially i the higher noted... and action was really crappy. but what do you expect? it's super old :p
blegh i dunno hahaha i feel like really getting cought up in a super good book...
like hxc hahaha xD
maybe ill read an old book or something...
i need like a new twilight xD
something that pretty...
<3
i dunno hahaha
levi's such a loser! haahaha jkjkj <3 :p he keeps saying that im super mean to him but we both know its a total lie :ppp
and sara was talking to me about plotting a plan for who's challenging who... i don't really care that much though xDDD
and today I tried taking off the starburst wrapper without my hands! [like... in my mouth] and i could do it! took a long time though @.@ hahaha im such a looser :p see what boredom does to you?
anyways that was pretty much my day :p
a boring saturday
that shouldve been super exciting. hooray.

Two Months Gone By

She was flustered. Her mom just dropped her off at the move theater and pointed him out. Her mom knew she liked him, a tall, brown skinned boy whose age was much higher that was known to her mom. She stood beside him now, looking the the times posted on top of the movie names.
They reached for each other's hands upon entering the theater, cuddling against the cold. Her shirt was backless and made everything seem colder. Except for him. His body was warm and comforting against hers.
Sometimes they watched the movie; sometimes they just watched each other. They held hands, he held her in him arms, they kissed oh-sweet-kisses.
When the movie ended [much to their dismay], they called up a friend, not wanting the day to end just yet.
Upon arrival, the friend passed them the remote control for the television and set out to his room to take a quick shower.
The couple switched through a few channels, leaving it at a show that explained how mustard, nuts and bolts, toilet paper, etc. are made before they started where they left off at the theater.
Their passionate kiss kept evolving, and by the time their friend came out of the shower to catch them red-handed, he was on top of her, still kissing.
The boy and girl pulled away as soon as they heard his door opening. They shot up to a sitting position and she blushed from embarrassment.
They called up another few friends to come over, and so they came, her ex-boyfriend and his girl included.
The boy and girl kept up their plan and showed each other how much they loved one another despite the awkward addition to the group.
Soon after, since time always goes faster when you're having fun, the girl had to go home.
That night, when she crawled into bed and txted him, he asked her to call so they could talk about things on the phone.
She sighed out of bed and headed to her walk-in closet, where her voice would be most muffled from the quiet of her home.
The boy stated speaking lightly profanely. He said that their friends were too young. He asked her if she wasn't intrigues by what they said to her, that he was a whore and a pedophile.
She shook it off. She told him it didn't bother her that much, and it didn't. One minute with him was the wold in her fingertips. She didn't care about what happened apart from her little sanctuary.
The boy went on. Two days from then it would be his birthday; he would once again be five years older than her.
She once again shrugged it off, sad because his voice was soft and sad.
After about an hour, he noticed the time and told her to go to sleep. He knew she would have to wake up early for school. He also reminded her that he probably wouldn't talk to her all day because he was busy. She got a little sad at the comment, but her optimistic side pulled through conveniently. Only one day.

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Two Months Later

She hardly talked to him again this week... just a couple days[Monday and today]. She sighed. Were was her fairytale romance headed?
she looked at her wrist by clasping on a sparkling diamond bracelet. The scab was finally gone. her mishap went by undetected; only two people knew about it.
She thought about two months ago exactly. One of her fondest memories. When she felt she had everything. Her days were the same; slow and boring. But then she felt so much joy when the day was finally gone.
Now she looked forward to nothing. Weeks begged for weekends and weekends begged for weeks; and undying circle of nothing.
Where had the fun gone? She plastered a smile on her face to examine her makeup.
She straightened her hair. Burns. Everything seemed to remind her of him.
She went to the party. Stand up straight. Pretend to have fun. Smile.
She wanted to cover her ears and eyes. Everything seemed so familiar.
She pulled out her cell and asked him if they could see each other tomorrow. Maybe. Of course. That's how it always was, even then.
She came back home tired. She just wanted to sleep. That was the only thing that she really enjoyed anymore.
Goodnight. No "sweet dreams sweetie". No "I'll talk to you soon". No nothing. Thats how it was.

Let's Dance *pulls out revolver*

Yesterday was kind of fun.
I didn't really do anything all day... History TAKS in the morning. We watched Freak Friday and it kinda got me thinking...
then lunch... regular lunch. nothing really interesting I don't think...
then 3rd block where we watched a movie about Billy the kid... It was awevsome! ^^ so many good movies today hahaha
in 4th block we finnished watching the movie about E=mc2... Feeerrriiidaaaayyy *drool* hahaha <3>.> yeah hahaha we had to turn it off :p and played escape instead :p
When I got home I took a lil break and then started to get ready for miss Christianne's Quinceñera ^^
I was wearing a white corset-like top
and meh long black skirt...
it was cute ^^ haha and I had diamond earrings, necklace, and bracelet :p with my hair in a 1/2 ponytail
when I got there... I was like "um..." hahaha cus I only knew Chris, JR, Roman, and Daniel... and I didn't feel like dancing to rap so I was just there on the side all loner... with Daniel xft. away from me hahaha super blegh >.<
and then Carrie and Steevie came... Steevie hung out with Daniel and me and Carrie were dancing together :p
For dinner there were chips[yum], mini corndogs, mini burgers, and buffalo wings... and super sweet Shirley Temple's >w<
and then me and Daniel started talking again.... cus I said sorry fially >.< I didn't know that was all I had to do...
and when Carrie left Daniel and Steevie were super mean! hahaha taking advantage of my bar back and ice.......>.> MEAN... hahaha
I got home like... i dunno 11:30? and went to bed :p suuuper tired
I slept super weird o.O
when I woke up I was alll over my bed hahaha xD
and I had a weird dream...
I was at a store with a bunch of friends and I kept seeing stuff from NZ and I was like "WTF? they sell this in the states??? >.>" hahaha
and then a couple SUPER hot guys yelled out "Sabrina!" and I turned arouind and they were talking to me o.O
so I walked over there and one said that he met me at all-valley... and that he's gone to state or w/e hahaha
it was weird....
:p
and today I woke up with pure LAZINESS!!!!
yay! hahaha

Watching from afar

So today I'll actually write a normal blog :p
In the morning I put in pigtails....
pigtails and glasses... perfect ^^
[was supposed to look ugly dammit >.<;;]

Today we took the science TAKS... easy...
after the test I fell asleep because I was super tired... I stayed up for nothing last night >.>
jee... I try.... :/ but my efforts are worthless anyways.
then I woke up and my neck hurt a lot cus of bad positioning haha so I txtd Chris and pulled out my headphones
I talked about a lot of... embarrassing stuff >.< haha but Chris is cool like that ^^
and I completely took off my left ear bud since it's not working at all :p
had fun with that! hahaha
I coiled the wires around my glasses [ ugh I have to wear them now cus I can't see >.<]
and we watched Wild Hogs in our room too...
and Melanie brought puffy hot cheetos ^^ <3

lunch was lunch...
I was being really conceded >.<
I'm just messing around with everything now...
no one cares :p so why should I?

1st block we sight read some music and some that we played the year before
^^ reminded me of the good ol times... for a sec -.-;;
hahaha yeah... we suck a LOT more this year ^^;;

2nd block we did TAKS stuff but idrgac

after school was after school... I don't fell like writing anymore
>.<
blegh.

halfway

get your act together
you tell me you love me like me
sometimes you act like you don't
last night I tried so hard to make you happy
to smile when I usually frown
but I can only think of how you're slipping away
Is it really worth it?
Where's the pleasure in this pain?
My inconsistent heart beats on a mind of it's own
I'm not sure If it needs you anymore
I don't know what to think of at night
Can you really put a smile on my face?
I forgot what you look like... and pictures don't do justice
I wish that I could call you... hear your voice crystal clear
but we'd just end up not talking after a while anyways
Do I even miss you?
Do I even care?
you gave me [fake] diamonds baby... which I still dare to wear
I almost brought your shirt to school
still reminds me of your scent
But does it even matter in the end?
I think that I still love you
I yearned for you yesterday
but I get mad for no reason
and you're too far away
you [kind of] cheated on me twice
and you promised after the first time...
You're cruel and evil and mean!
but I still dream about you at night~
of sweet kisses
and my heart beating fast
all those secrets we kept
and the promise you made about our next "date"...
though I'm not sure if that's really right for us
I think I would be better off if you just hurt me
clean cut... no more chances
just tell me that you don't like me
don't tell me you don't know
tell me you're getting hooked up with some hot girl
make me cry
I either want you in my life or out of it
but halfway isn't good enough.